BackfromtheStorm, I don't mean to hijack your thread, I would PM if I could but I don't have enough posts. I've read a lot of your replies to people on different threads and see you talk about "surrendering" a few times. I feel like I'm at rock bottom myself right now and want to know how you do it. Feel free to pm me if you want.
I think is partially due to getting out of Trauma and PTSD with no help.
"Surrender" means letting it all go, after years and years of hypervigilance.
It was spontaneous so I really don't know how "to get there".
As far as I know there are techniques to reach that inner peace although temporary.
Best I can explain it is like having your head completely free of thoughts, breathing is normal, body is relaxed, you become present, playful, you live in the moment.
No Overthinking. It only matters here and now and what you have to do. You don't care for outcomes, and things come so much easier.
I would not recommend to go through hell alone, probably a good therapist can help you to reach a balance without having to give up everything in this kind of "surrender".
It's likely a survival mechanism, from bottom up, while therapy helps you to reach the same place from top down.
That's likely why therapy is best, I have no clue what happened, it was just a "snap" of my nerve system, stopped caring. Therapy can teach you method, so you have full control on how to relax and take out the negative effects of trauma.
